Why 2025 was the WORST year of my life.

Introduction

2025 was supposed to be my year. I turned 20. Instead, it became a twelve-month gauntlet of betrayal, breakdowns, corruption, and soul-sucking work. Each month brought a new disaster. But somehow—corny as it sounds—each one also taught me something I desperately needed to learn.

This is the horror show, month by month, and the silver lining buried under every dark cloud.

January

What happened: A girl used me. She never wanted friendship or anything real—just whatever I could give her until she was done. When she dropped me, I felt devastated, miserable, and stupid. I couldn't understand why someone would treat another person like a disposable tool.

What I learned: I was an idiot. But not just because of her—because I ignored what was obvious from the start. I mistook small gestures of connection for genuine kinship. I lost my self-respect chasing something that was already gone. The real lesson: never respect anyone who doesn't respect you. She did me a favor by leaving. I don't want to think about her anymore.

February

What happened: My grandfather's car—the one I was driving—broke down on the highway. I was juggling full-time university and my shit job at Crew2. Mornings at school, evenings working remote for terrible pay. I never found time to check the oil. That's not an excuse; it's just the truth. The engine seized. For two weeks, I Ubered and begged my grandparents for rides.

What I learned: Always, always check your oil. First-time car owner or not, consequences don't care about your excuses. Pain is the best teacher.

March

What happened: The University hit me with bogus misconduct allegations. I had to leave.

What I learned: Never capitulate your rights. Never confess to anything. Institutional systems are not your friends—they will trick you into forfeiting everything. Stay silent, stay smart.

April

What happened: I was still broken over January's girl. Then I met someone incredible—Lily. But while I was deep in the University mess, I accidentally ghosted her. She blocked me.

What I learned: Be kinder. I was so wrapped up in my own pain that I pushed away someone genuinely good. That's on me. I'm sorry, Lily.

May

What happened: Discrimination. Government surveillance. Academic corruption. I appealed my suspension due to lack of evidence. The University responded by fabricating information, having a police officer lie about me, and admitting they'd been digitally monitoring me. They used Olympic-level mental gymnastics to justify everything.

What I learned: Always use a VPN. Never trust academic institutions. Never trust the police. Never cooperate. Never capitulate your rights. I walked away without any criminal charges—and I publicly humiliated them in the process. That's a win.

June

What happened: I wished I'd done more with my time, but Crew2 had me chained down. A remote job sounded chill. Instead, it was monotonous, boring, and unnecessarily stressful. I worked 3 PM to 9 PM every day, slept until noon, and couldn't touch my real goals—music, video editing, YouTube, coding. My boss micromanaged every move. Fucking piece of shit.

What I learned: A job that steals your time and your sanity isn't worth having. I deserved better, but I stayed anyway. That was the real mistake.

July

What happened: July was actually pretty cool. I biked a lot. Had fun with family. But underneath it all was the same grind: work, work, work that never paid off. My boss, Maliq, got more annoying by the day. To hell with him.

What I learned: Even the good moments feel hollow when your job is bleeding you dry.

August

What happened: I hung out with friends a lot—but that meant I didn't commit to my goals. I wasted the summer gaming and working instead of building anything meaningful. I did start video editing again, though. That was fun. I edited true crime videos and researched the history of human tattoos just for the hell of it.

What I learned: Time with friends isn't wasted time. But letting distractions eat your ambitions? That's a mistake I won't repeat.

September

What happened: Work, work, work. Family drama on top of it. But here's the good part: I released my first web app. I taught myself React and Vite from scratch and built a tool that removes backgrounds from images. I learned more about programming than I had in years—and I had a blast doing it.

What I learned: Coding saved my sanity. No matter how bad the job gets, building something of your own is hope.

October

What happened: I released a few YouTube videos. One hit 3,000 views. That's not huge, but I was deadass ecstatic. The month still had nonstop work, but I also spent real time with family and friends. It wasn't perfect—but it was nice.

What I learned: Small wins matter. 3,000 strangers watching something you made? That's proof you're capable of more than answering calls for a toxic boss.

November

What happened: My boss became a passive-aggressive, micromanaging piece of shit. A job should not be this stressful. I tried to reconnect with Lily (the girl from March). She had moved on and refused. That stung—but honestly, I understood.

What I learned: You can't undo past damage with a late apology. Some doors close forever. The only move is to walk forward.

December

What happened: I got fired. A customer was being a bitch, I had to take it, and Crew2 pulled the trigger. Whatever. They treated me like a worker bee—hundreds of calls a night, unrealistic expectations, constant bitching from Maliq. I did a good job, and they still tossed me aside. Looking back, I realize I was tricked into that position. My only regret is not leaving sooner. The stress cost me an entire year.

What I learned: Getting fired was a blessing in disguise. After I left, I finally had time to think about what I actually want: app development, video editing, music, entrepreneurship. Building things that matter. Not wasting my life for morons who don't deserve me.

Libertarian Values

This year turned me into a libertarian. I learned to protect my privacy, never trust government surveillance, and never—ever—capitulate my rights. Use a VPN. Hide your location. The system isn't here to help you; it's here to control you. I learned that the hard way.

Conclusion

2025 was traumatic. I was used, broken down, surveilled, fired, and exhausted. But I also grew more than any "easy" year could have taught me. I learned to spot users, maintain my car, keep my mouth shut around institutions, code my own tools, and value my own time over a toxic paycheck.